December 2009
Schopenhauer?? Shopenhauer?
it’s unclear. and I HATE that!
“desire, fulfilled, leads to another desire. perhaps it is better we are never...”
– my pal Shopenhauer again.
I think I like this Shopenhauer fellow, quite a...
pessimism and comedy are like peanut butter and chocolate to me. or something like that, bc I actually hate peanut butter and chocolate together. but he has some interesting quotes. I’m glad I googled him up :)
“almost all of our sorrows spring from our relations with other people”
– Arthur Shopenhauer
angus still lives.
New York has ruined me forever!!! (drama, oh the...
they’re doing one of those “guess which model’s ensemble is expensive and which is a bargain” deals on some morning show I’m accidentally watching, and I know which is which right off. I would never have known what to look for without extensive window shopping in places I could never afford…
neurotical:
Tumblr’s being a little bitch and my hearts aren’t sticking. And I can’t get back to where I started. I don’t have too much time to obsess about it, however, because I have some more cleaning to do, before going to the city to have dinner with minou and SMM (don’t be jealous). And then I come home the next day to clean a bit more, before celebrating the new year with even more of...
these "actual DirectTv customers" in the...
for SHAME.
21 degrees
what the FUCK am I supposed to wear to keep warm in that kind of weather?
I opened 'Infinte Jest' to a random page
just to see if I wanted to read it, and of COuRSE I find the part where some guy kills cats. I can’t read this. too bad. no cat killing, please, even fictional cat killing. I struggled through rat killing and felt bad enough, but cats…just NO. I’ll cry all damn day. as it is, I need to distract myself so I don’t obsess over it.
so I was watching ‘Intervention’ last night and the girl was an anorexic/alcoholic. the only problem I had was when they showed the girl in her undies, basically, and it was obviously meant to disgust viewers. my issue is that we weigh the SAME, and she’s only an inch taller. I get that she has a problem, bc she kept pointing out how FAT she was. but it did a number on my head. I...
I am such a little weirdo!!
I got a gift card to a bookstore in the mail yesterday, it was signed, “love, dad”, but electronically. my dad always signs things “daddy”, so it really freaked me out. I had to call him this morning to make sure. but honestly, WHO is going to send me a gift card to a bookstore and then falsely sign my dads name to it? and if they did, how weird would that conversation with...
it's not going to be ok
some girl just said that on ‘Intervention’ and I couldn’t agree more. wish I didn’t, though.
I'm so sad...
zombiebeevee:
shetoldmesomemore:
I basically live without being able to breathe through my nose. so imagine my utter joy at discovering Afrin really works! only: last night I was telling my old neighbor (she moved, she’s not old :) all about it bc she also had a bottle. and she told me she ended up with a minor staph infection INSIDE her
NOSE from using it!! so now it’s only for emergencies,...
next year will be different
talix18:
shetoldmesomemore:
I won’t ever again allow someone else to be able to threaten me with the loss of food, shelter, or anything else. I will learn to take care of my damn self. that’s my resolution.
A very large part of the reason I am single at my newly advanced age is because I knew if I accepted any long-term support from the decent gentlemen who were likely to offer it, I would...
I'm so sad...
I basically live without being able to breathe through my nose. so imagine my utter joy at discovering Afrin really works! only: last night I was telling my old neighbor (she moved, she’s not old :) all about it bc she also had a bottle. and she told me she ended up with a minor staph infection INSIDE her NOSE from using it!! so now it’s only for emergencies, she tells me. well,...
next year will be different
I won’t ever again allow someone else to be able to threaten me with the loss of food, shelter, or anything else. I will learn to take care of my damn self. that’s my resolution.
I really fucking hate this feeling.
I hate it when apples are mealy rather than juicy :(
as I'm reading what I just wrote
I realize i’m blowing smoke up my own ass about the bathing suit…the only place I’d feel comfortable in my bathing suit is in the shower, I guess. I haven’t really put on all the weight I thought I would. in fact, it figures: lithium often causes noticeable weight gain, but of COURSE it doesn’t in me. then again, it also often causes noticeable hair loss, but that...
I’d forgotten how silky cold weather makes your hair feel.
major déjà-vou.
giving kitty some Xmas squeezes.
apparently you can track Santa on your iphone
but isn’t that stalking? there are laws against that!!
changes are very scary
but you just have to hold on and hope for the best. I guess, anyway.
bacon should not smell like filthy old socks
or the moldiest cheese in the world. RIGHT???!!? i’m honestly asking, because the smell of the bacon we have almost knocked me down as it was cooking.
I'm always hearing my upstairs neighbor singing in...
so tonight I put on my iPod and screeched along with Guns N Roses, just for fun.
my dad sent me University of Alabama pajama pants
those should be a real hit in my building when I wear them down to the laundry room!
but it occurs to me
that I’m in a completely different frame of mind about medicines now (a good thing, if not nearly as much fun), because when Heath Ledger and Anna Nicole died, I never gave it a second thought that I was on those medications. funny how you always think, “not ME!!!”.
apparently you don't have to be able to type to do...
actually, it’s not done on a qwerty keyboard. they use keyboards similar if not the same as court reporters. I know this bc I almost decided to BE a court reporter, and closed captioning was listed as an alternative career open to people with that degree. I didn’t pursue it due to outright flakiness. but I can barely tell what’s going on when I put on the closed captioning,...
I'm not one to be upset by celebrity deaths
but I am a bit freaked out that Brittany Murphy was apparently taking two medications that I am also on. I’m under the care of a responsible doctor, but it’s still a little scary.
Take my uterus…please.
Tumblr is slipping
it doesn’t tell me about my reblogs. unless I happen to check my notes, I don’t know. for example, it’ll say “2 notes”, but then when I look at them there’ll actually be 4 or 5, counting reblogs. fucking technology. (a constant refrain of mine)
my father thought Princess Di was the most...
and I didn’t understand THAT, either. I thought she had soft, mushy features. not that I’m a great judge of beauty, but it’s subjective, isn’t it?
I know I'm in the minority
but I find Brooke Shields to be a hideous creature. she was a pretty teenager, but that’s all behind her now. to me, she looks like an unattractive horse.
'Slapout' is a funny name for a town
imagine my surprise to discover that not only is there one in Alabama, but in Oklahoma as well.
“New York, thy name is paranoia.”
– I found it in my book and I think it’s funny.
sade:
I just sent out an email asking if any of my coworkers could take my clients tomorrow and this incredibly annoying girl I work with fucking forwarded it to my boss with the added text: “there you go.” THERE YOU GO. What does that even mean. And my boss replied to me saying “If you can’t get anyone to take your clients we can always reschedule don’t worry about it”
Which is fine. I got...
the cherry on top
inothernews:
shetoldmesomemore:
they only returned with a HALF order of wings. what. the. fuck. I have very little patience left for the day.
It’s Pluck U., isn’t it.
it’s Atomic Wings. or was that a joke? it’s funny either way :) luckily 5 wings will hold me til dinner. I’m just glad it’s over!!!
it must be karma for some shit ive done wrong
because that was just an exercise in futility.
the cherry on top
they only returned with a HALF order of wings. what. the. fuck. I have very little patience left for the day.
they fucked up my order
and I mean totally. I really don’t need this today. I AM crying now. it shouldn’t be this hard to get something to eat. and the guy argued with me about what I ordered when I called to have it fixed. it MUST be my mistake. sure, pal.
it HAS to be a conspiracy
so we have learned that it’s impossible to order KFC as they have no working phone. apparently, Popeyes has the same problem. (and 411 is apparently run by monkeys, since they cant seem to give me any correct information, EVER). so then I decided to get wings, but the place at which I get them has closed the kitchen for cleaning (good to know, but awfully inconvenient). at this point I want...
I’m fighting nausea. I ate two bites of dinner yesterday and let’s just say it didn’t stay down. I have to take anti-nausea meds to even think about food. I don’t like this. I don’t feel sick other than that. I can’t afford to skip meals. I’ve worked too hard to get where I am, which is only slightly better than skeletal. dammit.